20

its cold...brr..
and im 20!!!
i am 20!!!
i am officially 20!!!

stayed at nato's house for this week.
simply because she was there this week and there's always a wii.
hahaha..
such an easy to read person.(me)

anyway, ever since puasa started, i do not talk much.
i do not know why..
i went to pastry kitchen and do what i gotta to do silently and quickly.
i do not wana talk or gossip.

this week events..

went to work for the first day after my first MC.
i get MC coz i get high fever. i have never get that kind of fever.
u know, hot outside and feels really sick inside and you just really wana curl up like a ball..

since last time, the type of fever i get was. flu, cough and just a tad bit skin heat.
after some active actions. i was sweating and i get better.
but this one..it just do not go away.

for 3 days.

anyway, i actually went to clinic(which is a must to get MC and to take off days fron Ghotel)
went to clinic wit kak nenchan.
since i get worse in tanjung bungah.
hahaha

its a kind of funny thing. i just bought rm30 and was scared that the clinic billing is more than that.
then me and kak nenchan korek2 our money.
luckily i kept spare some money in my car(yes, i have a lot of money hiding places, till sometimes i do not remember them)

then, all i got was rm41 + kak nenchan's RM3.

lucky me..the meds are rm40..hahaha..

anyway, after i left the house,i passed my germs to abg nel. i make abg nael take up my place.
sorry abg nael. demam masa puasa.

ok. anyway, the first day at work after mc. there i realised my face is full of rashes and little pimples.

this is all resulted from my fever and prolly my meds.(my dad said i may be allergic)
what??
allergy??
i do not have one.(dad said, funny thing about allergy, it changes through time)
darn u allergy.
then now, how am i to know if im allergic to something?

people asked me if the reason why i was absent for a week was chicken pox.
NOOO...is my face that bad???
its my bday week!!!and my face is rocky.

some people is just being an ass to me.
there's this one guy, ugghh..he is not worth to blog about.
he is one of the mean ugly people.
just you wait. im gonna be a really famous pattissier along side names like jacques torres and olivier bajard (i just know those 2..haha)

and im gonna crush you like me crushing butter in flour to make sweet dough.

anyway, ming dao(not his real name) merajuk with me since i said he is not that cute. hahaha..
and me just saying those smiles are just friendly smiles, not flirty..
hahaha
ming dao actually know how old am i..hahaha...
good..he actually do research on me..hahaha..

bought cake for my roomie who is also my bday date twin. and i made an orange chocolate piece from the pastry kitchen that says happy birthday.

anyway, i played wii sports with ajin. my arms actually gets to be worked out. i played bersungguh sungguh-ly.
me hitting the virtual tennis ball like hitting a real tennis ball.
me throwing the nonexistent bowling ball like its real.
and me trying to hit the baseball like im in the world series.

these are actually a good form of exercise. for people who do not want to go out and play the real thing.

hahaha.

i never tried dance dance revolution yet. nato's cousin tried and i just watch from behind. and it looked hard..too many arrows to hit.

then came 12 am. on 28.8.09.

i recieve a few wishes.

then suddenly, kak nenchan switch off the lights. i was like. what la now??
then nato bring out the tiramisu cake and they all sang bday song.
soo cool..

i never get that.
i never get that people singing in the dark with the suprise cake thingy.

since last time, i was the one who choose the cakes and the cake was in front of me and people singing it.

thanks natalia, afiq, kak nenchan, abang nael and ajin.



ありがとう！！！！

then, i drive home in the heavy rain.
listening to NEWS songs. and some DBSK...and some AAR..hahaha

(snap pix while driving on the highway, if my dad know, im dead. whats with the mouth??im actually scared snapping pix while driving.haha)

came back to my family and my mom wana do spaggie(my fave) as the bday dinner. bibik do her special kuih. and there are cheese cakes.
huuhhh...
calories.....

takpe...sekali sekala..

and that are this week highlights.
(takda kena ngena pon nak insert images like this..hahaha...its ok, its my blog)

i wana make a scrapbook. as me turned 20.

note to self, go find a good sketch book to paste up stuff (curik idea from abg nael's scrapbook)

English voices?

you know, i do not have that much mood to write down stuff and blog it.
but..when you got a free week..what the heck.
just effing type it anyway.

ok soo..
this week, ive been wathcing 'dead like me' series..
ts an old one..2003 sumthing..
but its nice...
its about reaper reaper thingy..
anyway, in the series got a guy called mason..
he swore a lot...seriously addictive..
after i watch the series...episode after episode..
i started to swore like i never swore before..

NOOOOOOOO.....

ok..anyhew..i read a roomate's blog..
which is bad..
and i do not want to know her life..coz she doesnt seem that friendly anyway.

she mentioned about the room..

how dirty and messy the room is..

sigh...roomate love...
that is what you get when you live with 4 people.

like you are that tidy...(ok so, maybe you are)
dude..who let the ants roams around the sugar that was left on the table??

ok..seriously, im not saying im tidy..
i am untidy..(and i proudly admitting this)..but..i dont bother your space..
i pretend not to care about the extension i bought and everybody using it.
i pretend to smile when i suggest to buy a new extension and everybody just giving lame no money excuse.(you guys could go shop for clothes and no money to buy extension??come on)

i mean.. come on..you guys are great..but someday, if there's an electric trip in the room..
boom..bye bye nice clothes...burned just like that...

ok then..you guys are not that great...very very noisy..not that i mind..i like noisyness..but not when i try to sleep before exam.

oh yea, and there's the fact where you guys just simply left my slippers in the toilet and let it go wet and soggy..

i hate slipping on wet cold slippers.

and and...i left my laptop on with no battery, but you guys just flick the effing switch off without asking.
you guys lucky i wasnt playing a game and left it, or i'll go completely mad that you might think i have an epilepsy.

ok, so, sometimes, you guys are good.
a good companion to talk to, to crap with and to gossip with.
and i like that you guys just leave me alone. to be alone is, sad, but nice in some way.

uhh..and look at these ^motioning to the words up here^
what a couple of words could make me do/write..

sorry roomies, if you happened to spot my blog and read it. but doesnt this make you feel good o sumthin??having someone actually care and write somehing about you, it just shows that someones notice you.
hahaha..ok, im cutting the bull here, but..aint it true?

again, sorry, these are just what i feel, and i never meant to make you guys read it. its kinda my personal diary, with some people i trust and like reading it.
and for my bloodlines(parents,family, siblings or even grandkids) to read, when erm..somewhen im gone.
these would be funny to you guys..
especially when you guys happened to read about all those 'kusano' dedicated posts...
funny...how big my crush is on someone.
and funny how i interpret something small and make it into something humungous.
and how i make my 'no idea' to write moment a 5 page long essay.^^

*i completely, am writing these words with an english accent reading em up in my head*

help. i want to lose this bloody english accent voice in my head.

Sa, Odorimashou!!

bon odori this year rox..LOL
maybe because i get to dance with friends.
and maybe because all the attention i get wearing yukata.


hahaha

ok.
the details..

i start up to wear the yukata at 4. and finished at 6.
i really tought it would be like half an hour..but..then...sigh..
plus..it is really hot.

so, then, from my actual plan to arrive at 5. i arrived there at 6.30.
hahaha
it was damn packed till, there is no convenient parking spot.
so, my dad dropped us off there, and he'll meet up up there.

so, the first thing to do was go and buy ticket.

on the way, i found eddy infront of the ghost house.
he, then shake my head like i was a lifeless dummy.if i were to strain myself that time. my head's muscle would snap.
and bye bye natchie(rip wearing yukata)
JAkey JAkey...
you are a guy.
a strong one(though ur hair longer than mine, but still.you have a guy energy)
dude...please remember that you are strong.
you could kill someone without noticing.
*my neck is strained now..it hurts to turn left ToT*
(ok, though i think i may have sleep wrongly, but..let put the blame on that head shakingpower of yours.

anyway, as always..there would be a japanese obachan wearing yukata selling the coupons.
bought 2 coupon=rm40

then, was walking around the corner, to go and meet up elina at the table of eating.
there a cute japanese guy with a camera.(he look like a kusano--a japanese one..so..in some way, he is 10 times cuter than the chinese 'kusano')
he was like ' can i take your picture'
HOHOHO..
of course i say 'SURE'
then, snappie..me n my sis posed.
hahaha

off to elina and fams..
said hi.and thanked elina's kaachan again for making the yukata, and teaching me how to wear it.

off to meet up with my family again.

bought up foods..
guess what..though every year i would buy up japanese foods..
this year, wince it is too hot.
we just bought whatever convenient.
fish and chip(yup...fish and chip..no takoyaki..no sushi...western food)

then we sat near the stage(well, me n lala cant sit, coz, the yukata would get dirty), and dad are off to buy some more food.

while we were eating, some people snap pix..
oh come on..
now i have to act cute all the time..(hihihihihi)

then, we finished, snap some pix to send to afique who is now at melaka.

after then, i walk around to meet up some friends.(mainly, elina and eddy)
saw eddy first..finally meet matrika..and i asked which one is laneboh..but she's not there.
then, he and his gang wana go back to the stalls(which is hot hot hot)
so, i decided to go to elina.

well, there, me, elina, and her friend. we dance dance dance. we follow the people on the stage.
and as always, since me and elina are wearing yukata, dancing to the japanese dance attract people to snappie.
wahahaha

the, the people on the stage rest up for a while, and we are off to find something to eat and drink. i went to my dad and siblings(who are in the line to go to the haunted house.well, i pass that opportunity.scared to my ends in yukata, is not a pretty scene.)

went and bought tons of tea.(decided to try green tea)

then, i drank peach green tea..OICHI..
off to dance with elina and her friend again.

then, come the time.
they call, 'anyone who are wearing yukata, can dance up here'
hahahahahahaha..(no)
me and elina was urged by a jap ossaan beside us.
well, i decided to pretend to run there.(to show the ossan a bit of respect)
then i go to elina's mom and dad.
Elina is off to the stage.
i was down there with my green tea.
drank it.(peih...soo damn bitter...and make me go gassy.)
obi is tight. the towel inside is tight..
the gas cant go anywhere..
waaaahhhh..(the price to pay..sigh..)

then, come 10pm.
HANABI TIME!!!!
'they announced, we let our dancers to see the hanabi from the stage'..DAMN...


the hanabi is really really nice..
*and soo i was thinking of..making this bon odori my hatachi kinenbi..well..since japanese people have this tradition that whenever that person turns 20, they would make this ceremony with the celebrated people wearing yukata and stuff*

the hanabi finished, decided to go back to my family.
on the way to the car(which is faaaaarrrrrrr)
i realized that i still have rm12 in my sleeve(literally)
then, im off to buy something worth rm12.(which is the gintell water=4can)
go and meet up mom and adniel back at the meeting point.
dad is off to go and take the car.

before dad come. me and natalyia are like 2 model wearing yukata at the side of the streets.
people stares..people waves.
i waves and smile back.(wahahahaa...)

then, dad came, get in the car.
stuck in the jam.

then, well..people still stare and waves.
there's this one car.
which have totally cute guy, smile and waves at me, and showing me a bunch of rambutan.
i smiled and said no.
well..get a smile from a cute guys is cool..
but not in a jam.
he still stared and smile..
i pretended to sms somebody.
hahaha.. (and that is how i react to over attention given-cowardy-)

then, it is all cleared.
and off to home.
sigh....
otsukaresama deshita...
^o^

a fun day, and i say...it is nice to be noticed...muahahaha..
next year, im gonna linger at gurney before the bon odori in yukata..
muahahahahahahaha...(with friends of course)
the force of a group is stronger people..stronger...hihi

(pardon my sister..she really dont know how to pose..whats with that hand...urgghh)

a bad day..

after a sunshine there should be a storm waiting behind
or something like that..
there is a saying that say something like that right??
anyone???what is it a??

ok, so this is what im shittin about..
today..
i was soo happy over some silly stuff..
then i lost my goddamn wallet..

please..whoever took it..give it back...you can take the goddamn rm200 but just please give me back my IC and student card..

and license card.

and all those cards..

damnit..

this is the day in history where thousands of people saw natch crying and having the puffy eyes.

im a person who even if it just a pencil lost...i'll cry..
imagine..
something as big as wallet..
it is a thing to cry in public..

i just hope..
just hope..
that..whoever took it or kept it...would return it tomorrow...
please...
please god..

let me get it back...
i swear i will be a better person...
i wont put all my money in my wallet anymore..
i wont keep secret money in my wallet...
and i wont kep an momento in my wallet..

PLEASEEE...
PLEASEEEEE

gimme back!!!!

im crying too much till my head hurts...
ahhhh..
ok..i know, it is kinda pathetic to cry over a wallet..

i came back in the room then there are just things to make me remember my wallet...
my roomate wore 'banana moon' shirt..which is the same brand for my wallet..
then im watching some doctor movies..and again cried..
ahhh..today is the cry day...i hate it..

ahh...my roomates are all laughing happily...i cant laugh with them..i just smile as wide as i can.


'i hope you will have a better day tomorrow miss' -by the maybank service center.
with all the optimism i have..
i know that the person who kept my wallet will give me back..if not directly, he'll give the security...
i dont care about the money..(though i did..but now i couldnt care less)
the cards are more important.
my licenses..my id..
my student id..
i just need that..
i dont care..if you throw it in a garbage bin...heck..i'll just accept it all without any cursing..
if you could just give me back my wallet..
please....i plead youuuuu..

100 truths.

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, copy and paste this note, erase my answers and enter your own, tag people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Earl Grey
2. Last phone call: Dad. to report that im back home safe and sound.
3. Last text message: Han . to mention the cheap chocs are on sale.and whether the guys want it or not.
4. Last song you listened to: Love Song - Yamapi.
5. Last time you cried: Last week. Izzie Stevens wedding.

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: nope.guys are like tissue. once use..not hygenic to use it again.hahaha
7. Been cheated on: err..??
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: nope.
9. Lost someone special: not yet.
10. Been depressed: once in a blue moon.
11. Been drunk and threw up: nope. never. never will

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. black
13. blue
14. red

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yup yup. its like every month i get one..haha..most recently. bumper car. the easiest place to make friends.
16. Fallen out of love: this year??nope.
17. Laughed until you cried: i never get that kind of lame weakness. because i laugh all the time.
18. Met someone who changed you:
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: bad stuff???not yet la. keeping it all low.
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: nope.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: yes. because i just approve the people i know in real life.
23. How many kids do you want?: preferably. 2.
24. Do you have any pets: hahahaha...all died..
25. Do you want to change your name: noperz...im one of the people that have unique name.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: went out with kat and nad for death race.and try to stalk that Digi guy.
27. What time did you wake up today: 9.
28. What were you doing at midnight: sleeping. was dead tired..
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: vacations.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: just a few seconds ago..'yeong, iron baju!'
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: me, having a chuck bass kinda guy as my bf. and living on the upper east side. minus the sex and scandals.
32. What are you listening to right now : Cobra Starship - Good Girls go Bad (leighton seriously sound like Miley)
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yea...Thomson..
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: nothing.
35. Most visited webpage: Twitter.
36. Whats your real name: Natasjja Aiman Binti Nahar Khairudin
37. Nicknames: natch, nacchie, nut, yeong, aiman, tasha, tash(ony nur ain called me this last time in high school)
38. Relationship Status: 100% available.
39. Zodiac sign: Virgo.
40. Male or female?: Female
41. Primary School?: Sek.Keb.Convent Father Barre, Sek.Keb. Sultanah Asma.
42. Secondary School?:Sek. Keb. Sultanah Asma
43. High school/college/university?:Sek.Men. Keb. COnvent FB/ KDUPG.
44. Hair colour: Black
45. Long or short: in the middle.
46. Height: 163cm
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: a lot. everytime i watched new movies or series. yup.
48: What do you like about yourself?: My jovial attitude.
49. Piercings: nowhere.(pericing are painful!!)
51. Righty or lefty: Righty..i do hope i can be ambidextrous.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: never.
53. First piercing: never did
54. First best friend: a kid named zul or something? i dont remember. but now, Nattie, Noby, El
55. First sport you joined: Swimming.
56. First vacation: dont remember.
58. First pair of trainers: i dont know man!!..i dont know..

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: nothing.
60. Drinking: earl grey.
61. I'm about to: iron taht pile of mountain called clothes.
62. Listening to: Wonder Girls. Nobody.
63. Waiting on: Tom Yam to cook.

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: i dont know, i'll accept what i'll get.
65. Get Married?: duuhh
66. Career?: Billonaire.(it is a career)

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller: Taller.
70. Older or Younger: Both.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Both.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: 8 packs...oh no..wait..10 packs..like taylor lautner.
73. Sensitive or loud: Loud.
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Trouble maker.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: does long a never-met aunt considered stranger??hahaha...
77. Drank hard liquor: nope.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yup..my blue shades..i suspect they played with it and lost it.
79. Sex on first date: nope..
80. Broken someone's heart: if any. i dunno pon. huhu
82. Been arrested: nope.
83. Turned someone down: Lol..yeah,
84. Cried when someone died: everytime. even in series. or in books.
85. Fallen for a friend?: yup?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: of course. or else, how am i this crazy?
87. Miracles:yes. totally. we have allah. and He is miracle himself
88. Love at first sight: yes. everyday. in things and in guys.
89. Heaven:yes.
90. Santa Claus: Never did. but i once believed in Harry Potter.hahaha.
91. Kiss on the first date: hahaha..nope..
92. Angels: YEs.. my favourite subject of study.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: yup. but it doesnt considered as cheating because that other one is on idle mode.
95. Did you sing today?: Yeah..everyday..and it aint pretty.hahaah
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: hmmnn...according to Q-94..nope.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: before i turn into *this*. a twisted person.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: i dnot know.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: ahahahahahaha...as female version of chuck bass...i do.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?:ahaha..but in my blog.

im just soo bored

1.) Have you ever been asked out?
: by guys or girls???yup...to both.

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
: that picture???green room...haha...weed's room.

3.) What's your middle name?
: random??

4.) Your current relationship status?
: Single and totally available..sometimes very desperate..haha

5.) Does your crush like you back?
: well if they does, then thats good...but if all my crush likes me back..im gna be one helluva busy woman...

6.) What is your current mood?
: totally bored...

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
: hmnn...i'll check that later.

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
: Black..as always...

9.) Missing something?
: good home made food.

10.) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
: a lot...which i dont remember..

11.) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
: Falcon...because i want to fly and see the world/

12.) Ever had a near death experience?
: nope..and i do not want it.

13.) Something you do a lot?
: Staring at the ceiling and let my imaginations about everything run wild.

14.) The song stuck in your head?
: Nobody by Wonder Girls..

15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
: Syu

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
: Ee lin??(my roomate)

17.) When was the last time you cried?
: 2 days ago..while watching Grey's anatomy...

18.) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
: when im seriously mad.

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
: Invisibility...huhuhu..so that i can stalk cute guys without getting noticed...

20.) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
: Hair,their broad shoulders, smile, smell.

21.) What do you usually order from starbucks?
: Ice blended mocha??coz i really liked mocha..hahaha

22.) What's your biggest secret?
: i dont remember.

23.) Favorite color?
: Black, blue and red.

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
: Yup..my friends tigger and pooh on play house disney..seriously..thats the ony cartoon that is cute enough and have plots and stuff.

25.) What's on your walls?
: post it notes. and a lot of mosquitos blood.

26.) What are you?
: people sometimes think im a mix of something and something but im just a malay who really dont like to be one..

27.) Do you speak any other language?
: nihongo...basic french...and a libbit mandarin= hokkien(its mainly very rojak)

28.) What's your favorite smell?
: lemon..and roasted chicken.

29.) Describe your life in one word.
: Fun

30.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
: nope...

31.) What are you thinking about right now?
: kissing in the rain..DUDE..you planted that word in my brain.....

33.) What should you be doing?
: packing...which i really have to wait for my clothes to dry first.

34.) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
:no one particularly.

35.) How often do u talk to God?
: everyday..coz i kinda talk to myself everyday..and keep on talking to alone.

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
: yard???hmnn..if i get the chance...working thre could get me loose weight faster..haha

37.) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
: Quintensence(coz it is a really unique name i created for my never-finished novel)

38.) Do you act differently around the person you like?
: yea, i get more loud and jovial(which i should just shut up and be cool)

39.) What is your natural hair color?
: black..

40.) Who was the last person to make you cry?
: i dont really know...but if i were to say..hmnn...IZZIE STEVENS??

Coincidence week

ahh..weekends..

the days that i have time to blog..
oh yea..i can now proudly say that ive watched star trek twice..and it gets better and better..

zachary quinto hotness just dont die in a week.hahaha

oh yea...drove to penang...YAY!!...it was seriously, challenging for me..but still, i managed to go out to queensbay and gurney in a week.

hahaa..

the biggest mistake ive done to the car is..

driving with the handbreak on.
and actually forgetting to lock the car...

GOD help me..i dont want those two mistake to be reapeated ever again.

and i actually can come back to sp from seberang perai alone..(well..from penang to seberang, i have AnS with me, but then, im alone..with musics)

ohhh...how music actually help me and my driving..

i have the playlist of driving this week..
the whole DBSK MIROTIC album,
taylor swift 'you belong with me'
plain white T's 1,2,3,4

well..maybe thats all for the week..

oh yea, im blogging while watching Boys Over Flowers in KBS world
(NOOOOO..junpyooooo.....you should remember Jandi!!!...damnit that hospital girl!!)

ok...so..what i atually wana tell here now is,yesterday, i went for angels and demon..in CS(oh god...CS is seriously lame-no offence-)and there..i was secretly wishing that i can get a glimpse of Ami.

and just before we go in the cinema...Ami was there, just exiting the cinema..

he was wearing...
the same style of sweater as i am..
long sleeved..
hoddies..
BLACK(we usually get to ter pakai Black sama2 since forever)
its just that he wear the thick type..and i wear the cardigan style.
(as my friends said...'are you two planned to wear this or..is it FATE??')

LOL..

but seriously...why is it when im secretly wishing that, it would come true??

hahaha

is it...THE LAW OF ATTRACTION???
hahaha...

damnit...i need to get out from my own world.

i keep on imagining things that should happen IF..and would happed IF..

but still..just as im missing him...i get to catched a glimpse of him in the weekend..
hahaha

oh yea...
then i msged him,that i saw him.
then he was like, why didnt you call me out..
then i was like...i have to go in the cinema..hahaha

then we talk for a while about hot guys in star trek(ok..i did that, while he talk about megan fox)

oh..ok..ok

i need to stop blogging since Jandi is hugging hyun joon oppa.

hahaha

need to continue watching the drama.

ahhhh...

MINHO!!!!